There is no “reason”. It is not an anniversary, birthday, “special” day of any kind…it is just one of those days when I wish I could pick up the phone and chat or go and see her for a hug. It is a day I had set out to declutter, instead I find myself dehydrating with the tears that are falling. It is a day to allow myself to feel the sorrow of missing her, to not hold back for fear I might make someone uncomfortable, but to feel the loss because it also fills my heart with her love, her memory, her wisdom and her support. They are also tears of gratitude for having had her in my life as long as I did, for the lessons she taught me, the frustrations she brought me, and the so very many times she caught me.
Missing you Mama.
And grateful that I don’t always listen to the advice to “throw old cards away”.
Thank you once again for your encouragement.
Love aways from your baby girl.